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Happy New Year.

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everything.

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this is me, yesterday when everything was under control.then everything happened. i met one of my best friends, had an amazing evening. we looked amusing at the radio controlled helium shark across the street and listen to music and talked. then i left for the night but i didn't go far. t-centralen here i come. waited. then everything collapsed. i put my cards on the table and the only thing i regret is that last kiss. god, i love you. more than you know. i'm afraid that you'll leave me, again. you're afraid and i know that, i respect that but that doesn't mean that i want you to try. to take that chance. i really don't know what to do anymore. what i can do to reassure you that i mean what i am saying.

23/12-11

Kategori: Allmänt

the day according to my horoscope should have been my luckyday... it turned out to be so far away from perfect or anything happy at all. in five it will be christmas eve soo yeey...

boring.

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Plans.

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When something doesn't go as planned, then you just need to get a new plan.. But that's the problem, I don't have one.

presents.

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i love presents. it's the point of celebrating christmas and birthdays! on my wish list are: money, money and some more money. because i want to buy this amazing camera but i don't want to wipe my account clean just so i can buy it. so there's really no better thing than having your birthday so close to christmas, because now i get all the money at once, i don't have to wait 6 month for the rest. but there's a down side to having your birthday a week before christmas and that is: that your family and friends can say "this is your christmas present to" or "you get mine on christmas eve instead of now"...............

afraid.

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i don't know what's waiting for me at the end of the tunnel. i hope it's a bog box of chocolates but i fear for the worst. i don't want to feel this way. every time i see/hear or even when someone mentions your name i hope for the best and fear for the worst. i don't know what you are doing and i know i can't control you and that's something i don't want to either. i just wanna be able to trust you. to see right in those beautiful eyes of your and trust every look, every glans and i want to hear your voice and believe every word that comes out. i can't change the past but i can change the future. i'm just hoping you're willing to do the same.

waiting.

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you know the feeling when you're waiting for something. the feeling of expectations. i've been waiting for a hec of a long time now and i'm correcting a misstake i said in (swe.) that my birthday (är på den fjärde advent och inte den tredje). by now it should be decimeters of snow on teh ground but it isn't. it's lots of the boring frost and that's only by night. december is suppost to be white and bright but still dark if you know what i mean. i'm waiting for the first snowfall and ofcourse my birthday.

Awkward.

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I said okay. Then you said you would be there I thought you ment it. then. You suddenly ignore me, don't wanna be seen with me. I don't understand. Why is everything not as it should be. Can anyone explain why everything has to be so damn difficult when it's as easy as walking, breathing and speaking. And when you act like this it's not as easy as that...

1/12-11

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"No light, no light in your bright blue eyes 
I never knew daylight could be so violent 
A revelation in the light of day, 
You can't chose what stays and what fades away"


packing.. so fun.. but the destination is kind of fun. norrköping. apparently i'm suppost to share room with someone bu tthe problem is that i only know two of the guys i'm going with so that shall be interesting to see how they work that out. my mum has guests over as i speak and i've finally managed to break free from the party. i was suppost to pack.. okay, bye then!

all this and heaven too.

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I would put them back in poetry If I'd only knew how I can't seem to understand it I would give all this and heaven too I would give it all if only for a moment That I could just understand The meaning of the word you see 'Cause I've been scrawling it forever But it never makes sense to me at all Words, poor language Doesn't deserve such treatment And all my stumbling phrases never amounted To anything worth this feeling All this heaven Never could describe such a feeling as I'm in Words were never so useful So I'm screaming out a language That I never knew existed before