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Peace and love here I come in 42 days!!!! Gaaahhhhh can't wait! Awesome!!

I'm seeing your face, how your eyes are telling a story that I don't understand.

I'm hearing everything you've said to me, everything I believed in.

I'm hurt but I can manage to fell a tear even thou my eyes wants to release a flood.

I'm feeling envy that she gets you when I don't.

I'm screaming at the top of my lungs, but no one seems to care or listen for that matter.

I'm trying to start over but everything I do or see or hear reminds me of you somehow.

I'm sitting here awake in the middle of the night thinking of you.. You, you, you no f*cking else but you. And I just want to stop but I can't and that scares me. Because if I can't stop how will I move on or just a baby step like not blaming myself for this. That I should have known what I was getting myself into before hand. But guess what I'm only human for godssake!

Still not funny...

Every bone in my body is in pain. I have been busy moving bricks, isolation and wood that my body is refusing to move. Okay not literally but mentally. My legs keep walking and doing the things that it should while my head is screaming the opposite.

Hearing you should do this and you should do that doesn't help. I finally got my head around what has happened And all you do is bossing me around. It doesn't help. Trust me.

Today I've been in the slopes all day. Trying to think about something else than what awaits me below. It's was quite nice only thinking about what should I do now, should I go down this hill or that?

If you know me I hate reading books, so if I say that in these two days I've finished reading two books you wouldn't believe me but I promise you it is so very true. The problem is now that I don't have any more books to read... I know I am sick of some sort because this isn't me at all.




Ps. Hoping Sofie kicks some serious but tonight!!!!!
// Coach Abbe

Cookies with milk makes you feel better for maximum ten minutes so enjoy every minute of it.

Things to do today;
1. Get out of bed
2. Survive
3. Go back to bed

I'm selfish, impatient and insecure. I make mistakes. I am out of control and at times, hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best.

Everyone wants to be happy, nobody wants to be in pain. But you can't have a rainbow, without any rain.

Smiles are like band-aids they cover up the pain but it still hurts.

Never regret something that once made you smile.

You don't get another chance. Life is no Nintendo game.

Love is like the wind, you can't see it but you can feel it.

Don't tell me the sky is the limit when there is a footprint on the moon.

I'm sitting on the floor in my room.

I like it down here, under my window looking out seeing the night sky. Not being able to hear the cars outside or the houses that represent other people and their problems and lives. The stars remind me of so many things. Good and bad but mostly good. Making a wish upon the evening star is a tradition all around the world but how many actually come true? I wanna know why people even take their time wishing things. Life's a bitch and then you die. Nothing more to it than that. The star your wishing upon can already be dead. Then what will you do? If you can't make it happen by yourself?

I'm sitting on the floor in my room. Letting my thoughts drift astray and away from here.

When something doesn't go as planned, then you just need to get a new plan.. But that's the problem, I don't have one.