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worst day ever.

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or at least in a while. everything at once is too much for a human being to handle. you can take it in small amounts but when it comes down to it we can only do our best nothing more. my strength is fading away and i can't stop it. especially when everything that can go wrong does. i hate being late. i hate when people doesn't keep their word. i hate it when you can't do anything about it. i blacked out when it gets to hard or it gets to much. i need things in order but somehow in chaos at the same time. because when i've blacked out it only needs a slight push to make everything tip over. i need sleep and lots of it not long sleepless nights only thinking about what you should do. i want a weekend abroad where it's warm and nothing can get to you. no stress. no worries. hakuna matata.

Wtf.

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You're not here when you're there and you're still not here while you're actually here!
So just go! I'm done!

Again, again and again.

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Does that mean that it's a pattern?

I liked it when I could go anywhere without a care in the world. It was freedom of some sort. Now I'm afraid. But that folks is going to change!!
From this day forward I'm going to do what I like and what I think is right without a care in the world! I'm tired of being afraid of … so I'm doing this for me and it feels wonderful!

Yesterday or intact the whole weekend has been amazing. I've been with my sister while she was sick, the poor thing chickenpox. Then I've faced my fears by entering a bowling competition that at first I didn't want to play. After that I visited my cousins and had dinner there as well. Then… HUNGER GAMES!! Omg!! It was soooooo good! I highly recommend it! Had a very nice conversation as well with a dear friend of mine ;). Finally I joined my father when he was shopping in town. A great weekend as I said!

At the moment I'm sitting on the train that's taking me home too Eskilstuna. Where my mother is waiting for me :).

Next week there's this really big and important game (bowling) that I'm attending and after that DUBLIN with my grandparent! I'm so exited!!

is it the train or the entire planet.

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Open your eyes
Close your ears
Close your ears
Open your eyes
Listen to the words you see
You are blind to what you hear
Listen to the words you see
Do not fear the truth beneath
Reach for roots beneath the trees
Listen to the words you seek
Don't listen to a word they say
Do NOT listen to a word you've heard
Do not listen to a word you've heard
People are people we live for our own
Live how you think not by what you've been told

We meet again.

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It's been a while since we last saw each other. It's been too long and especially too quiet.

To hear your voice and realize that everything it okay between us feels amazing. I was afraid that it was going to be really awkward and stiff but it was almost the opposite. If it wasn't for mum we would have been able to talk some more which I would have preferred. I've missed talking to you and your voice… I love it. Not kidding! It almost makes me all fuzzy inside ;)

It feels good seeing you again and I hope we can talk some more an other time.

Your eyes mr are the most beautiful I've ever seen. They make you dream of into some kind of dream land… I can't explain but they are beautiful!

Remember that you're amazing and just awesome!

Xoxo

Sleeping alone tonight.

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Stockholm, central station. That's were I've been thousands of times, hundreds just for you. and going there now practically every weekend twice. Hurts. It reminds me of you. Everything there reminds me of you...

I can't stop thinking!

Comparing.

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I'm stuck, I'm comparing you with everyone else..

I hate you for what you did to me but I can't be mad at you so I end up hating myself for not hating you.

Why wasn't I good enough for you?

Hello again.

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Here I am, again. In the middle of the night and can't sleep. Funfunfun...

happy, tired and i have a camera.

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I amprettyboredso i took these. i am also waiting for time to go faster so i can go to bed and then manage to fall asleep. first day of school today, it was nice to see everyone again after the winter break. some were injured, some were hyper, some were happy and some were still asleep. pretty good first day besides that you have a test on wednesday and an other on thursday... but besides all hell breaking lose. again. life sucks a bit less.

many things come to an end.

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today i met a friend and we eat lunch, walked stockholms streets and took lots of photos. here are some. today i also got dissapointed, sad and got that feeling that you can't take it any longer. that feeling when your done. don't have the stregth anymore...