Right now.
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I'm not hungry anymore.
I'm everything but awake.
I do not care about anything.
I'm not me.
christmas one and two.
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om föräldrarna är skilda betyder det två av nästan allt, fira jul är inte ett undantag
pappa:
mamma:
18/12 - 2012 18:18:18
Kategori: pictures
JAG ÄR 18 ÅR.
jag trodde att allt, iaf mycket skulle klarna upp när det var dags att växa upp men det har bara blivit mer komplicerat. jag trodde att jag skulle vara redo efter 18 år att växa upp och ta ansvar för mina handlingar. men ack så fel jag hade. livet blir inte lättare eller mer kontrolerbart bara för att man blir ett år äldre. den enkla och lätta vägen har vi redan passerat och framför oss finns alla möjligheter i välrden, nu är det bara upp till oss själva att säga ja till de.
ps. den bästa tårtan någonsin.
ben&jerry's half baked, med 18 ljus, såklart.
gör om. gör rätt.
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- If today were your last, would you do what you're doing? Or would you love more, give more, forgive more?
en vanlig fredag som denna.
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Sitter och väntar på att trerätters middagen ska börja + ostbricka.
Förrätt: anklever mousse med rödlöksmarmelad
Varmrätt: svamprisotto med kalv biff
Ostbricka
Efterrätt: Gino
sheldon cooper. genius.
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Rock, paper, scissors, lizard, Spock. It's very simple.
Look:
scissors cuts paper,
paper covers rock,
rock crushes lizard,
lizard poisons Spock,
Spock smashes scissors,
scissors decapitates lizard,
lizard eats paper,
paper disproves Spock,
Spock vaporizes rock,
and as it always has,
rock crushes scissors.
fall.
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i love when the leaves start changing colors and when the temperature begins to decrease. it means the winter is coming and that means snow, my birthday, christmas and last but not least new years eve.
Bullying.
Kategori: thoughts
Girls are like candy, sometimes you want a twister and then and again a snickers.
bedtime.
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picture from last night while putting my little angel to sleep.
it's crazy how much i love you. i will never leave you.
i am going to be here, right beside you every step of the way until the day i die.
that i can promise you.
LOV.
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Sitter och läser en sjukt bra bok medan jag försöker dricka mitt te, inte bara lite varmt.
Sedan njuter jag också av att det är lov nästa vecka.
Kan det bli bättre? Tänk för det kan det! Kommer att få träffa Stella på söndag! "hasta la vista, baby!"
why?
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If you love it like I love it
And you feel what I feel inside
If you want it like I want it
Then
And you feel what I feel inside
If you want it like I want it
Then
fuck you. leave me alone. no more. i can't do it. it hurts.
you have no idea.
midnight snack.
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well, i've thought about it now.
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knowing that you've deleted me from your mind.
hurts more in reality than in theory. i was hoping that it would be the other way around.
full of thunder and lightning.
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this next year of school. my last in europaskolan will be tough but i'll manage, somehow. i'll get the assignments done in time and then perhaps it won't get so difficult in the end. and the best of all, i have my friend there to support me and i them.
leaving is a thought i've been having for a long time. not leaving for good but just get away a week or two. leave everything behind with no regrets. watching the sunset in a far away country, trying to hear it sizzle when it hits the horizon.
i'll get there someday hope sooner than later but no one knows what happens tomorrow so lets just hope it turns out okay in the end.
Midnight sky.
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Can't sleep. Sitting here, looking at the sky, seeing how the light changes by the hour. I can't sleep. I can't sleep.
Revenge.
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Haven't slept tonight. Tired but still wide awake. I want to disappear into nothingness but at the same time I want to scream at the top of my lungs so the whole world sees me.
I've talked about patterns before and here's one more. Every word, every emotion. Cold as ice but at the same time manage to lie some more. I'm sick and tired of this. It hurts. And revenge is a headline of this do almost exactly what happened before but reversed. Thanks. Like I wasn't feeling bad already. Everyone makes mistakes.
I always wondered what it would be like to end up in the hospital.
Coming home.
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On the train, destination home sweet home.
This weekend I've experienced, I think, what I've made others feel. Horrible.
Speaking what's on your mind isn't really my think but I'm trying really hard because if I don't tell you what I feel then you won't tell me anything in return. I'm sitting here wondering still, not really sure if I'm going to be sitting on this train once more. That scares me. A lot. It's like my dream I had tonight, everyone leaves. One way or another.
worst week ever.
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let me refresh my last post to worst week ever. because this has been awful. everything and nothing really, everything from waking up five minutes before i should be out the door to being left alone in Berlin. real fun. been on my feet the hole weekend working my ass off and all i get is "can you do that", "you better do this" or "you know that this is how you should do it". i know what i'm payed to do. i don't need you picking on me every minute, every hour, every day we spend together. i really don't like you and especially your attitude against me. i'm doing nothing wrong, i'm just doing it my way, wich is right but not as you would have done it. so stop it. fucking stop it. get it?
i miss you more than i thought i would and then to hear you say those things... after the week i just had wasn't a good combo.
let me refresh my last post to worst week ever. because this has been awful. everything and nothing really, everything from waking up five minutes before i should be out the door to being left alone in Berlin. real fun. been on my feet the hole weekend working my ass off and all i get is "can you do that", "you better do this" or "you know that this is how you should do it". i know what i'm payed to do. i don't need you picking on me every minute, every hour, every day we spend together. i really don't like you and especially your attitude against me. i'm doing nothing wrong, i'm just doing it my way, wich is right but not as you would have done it. so stop it. fucking stop it. get it?
i miss you more than i thought i would and then to hear you say those things... after the week i just had wasn't a good combo.
