not the summer i had expected. rain followed by thunder and some lightning. this equals sadness in some way, where has all the sunlight and happy days, hot days wondered off to? i need something to distract me. something that makes me focused on something else than checking my phone every minute. i've read over 7 books this summer so far. and that is saying something if you're me, because i hate reading. but it has been an good way of loosing yourself, loosing yourself in an another world.

this next year of school. my last in europaskolan will be tough but i'll manage, somehow. i'll get the assignments done in time and then perhaps it won't get so difficult in the end. and the best of all, i have my friend there to support me and i them.

leaving is a thought i've been having for a long time. not leaving for good but just get away a week or two. leave everything behind with no regrets. watching the sunset in a far away country, trying to hear it sizzle when it hits the horizon.

i'll get there someday hope sooner than later but no one knows what happens tomorrow so lets just hope it turns out okay in the end.