yesterday must have been the worst day in my life. okay not exactly but it was horrible. everything i believed in and trusted fell apart. i don't understand!!!! i really don't. how could you do this? and why did you? you promised me. once upon a time a promise meant everything to you. now it's the last thing you'll do is breaking the one promise i can't forgive you for. if you do it i will be heartbroken. more than i am right now because then you get the easy road out of this mess and i'll be stuck here living with this the rest of my f*cking life. i trusted you over everyone i believed in you like no other. and then you do this. there's not enough words to describe what i'm feeling right now. you tried to break me down, it made me stronger, you destroyed my trust for you and you made me believe again. you had me more times than i can count. you had me all along and this is what you do when you're not with me. it's not human behavior what you are trying to achieve. you can't have the cake and then eat it too. i can't, i just can't anymore. i don't know what i must have done for you to go all crazy on everyone. i'm sorry but i can't.